The Morning After

I succumbed to the sleep demon and I should be panicking and pulling out each strand of hair right now but I feel strangely calm and numb. I haven't studied for 203 except reading background information on the Tibet issue and going through the first 3 lecture slides, all of which looked highly foreign to me. I started studying at 10 yesterday and after reading about media21 and stuff like that I felt really really sleepy. So I decided to plop down on the sofa and take a nap from 11 to 12. I told my brother to wake me up! At first I couldn't sleep because my Dad came by and he kept telling me to go to my room and sleep and because they all kept making noise I couldn't concentrate on falling asleep. I figured I should just get up and continue studying since I wasn't super sleepy anymore yet when I tried to read on about Singapore Broadcasting woes I couldn't tahan. Eyes saw abstract, arbitrary symbols (a.k.a alphabets) that did not mean anything because the brain refused to attach any significant meaning into it. So I went back to the sofa and tried to have a "power nap" because that's what my brother kept telling me to do. So I did, but during the process of falling asleep I kept thinking about Tibet and Media 21 and National Cinema. WHY THE HELL IS MY BRAIN SO ACTIVE WHEN FALLING ASLEEP AND NOT WHEN I"M READING THE DAMN NOTES. Like effing hell. It took me a long time to fall asleep. I told my brother to wake me up at 5 AM. Now it's 8 AM and my brother is on the sofa that I abandoned in the middle of the night for my comfortable bed in my room. Let me remind myself that its 8AM and that I NEED TO DESPERATELY CRAM SO MUCH MORE. TWO OH THREE HOW I HATE YOU SO. It's really just too much. That A+ is really just a freaking consolation price for an otherwise highly screwed up subject. I will not panic and my Dad is so nice. He told me he'll get me a Bento Set for lunch. I don't deserve this.

I'll shut up now. I just needed to get my brain started.