I really really really...

...don't want to go to school tomorrow. 202,208, and History. My top 3 least favorite modules.
...don't want gain weight. But I am damn it!
...want to drop my History module. It might be interesting but the readings are torture. Historians like to write in a pompous academic language.
...want to figure out what I really want.
...need to lose weigh. My gain in mass is quite disgusting.
...need to finish 208 Assignment.


On a random and rather embarrassing note, last night I dreamt that I had a baby, and I was cooing and cradling her/him so lovingly.
I was saying motherly things like " Give mommy a kiss."
And that cute thing gave me a kiss damn it!
All this after I finished reading Breaking Dawn.
That dream scared the crap out of me.
No. No. No.
My motherly instincts are NOT creeping up in my subconscious.
It's the books fault and my hyper imagination.
Now I dread turning 20 even more.