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14 days till The First Two Exams.
I'm desperately trying to cram shit loads of information into my puny brain to crap out during the Exams.
Not an exactly tasteful imagery, but then again, it reflects how I currently feel towards the process of force feeding my brain. The frequency of "ah ha!" moments just made me realized how much I've missed out. If it sounded vaguely familiar once, I finally understand it (to a large extent) now. Yes. I'm making progress. Even if it's at a snail's pace.
I complain that the kids I tutor have the attention span of like 5 seconds, but I am not any better. I have an attention span of about one content heavy paragraph. Another consecutive one, and I just won't get it. Thus it takes me forever to finish one chapter of Econs. 28 chapters suddenly sounds like forever.
I've come up with an Emergency Study Plan that is effective from today onwards. Basically it's an attempt to kill myself. It's highly ambitious and is only attainable if I have concrete concentration, zero tendencies for restlessness, complete focus on the task at hand, miraculous will power and super set determination. The D word (discipline) is yet to be internalized. I refuse to think I'm setting myself up for failure, so I will hang on to this deluded optimism (the one that got me through O/A level) and believe that things will turn out OK.
Right. I need divine intervention.
I think my guardian angel whispered (deliberately in the faintest of voices) to go back to study.
Or maybe it's just guilt.
People always leave, be it you or me.
Relationships are temporary or ever changing.
It gets tiring after a while.
I need something constant.
I've come up with an Emergency Study Plan that is effective from today onwards. Basically it's an attempt to kill myself. It's highly ambitious and is only attainable if I have concrete concentration, zero tendencies for restlessness, complete focus on the task at hand, miraculous will power and super set determination. The D word (discipline) is yet to be internalized. I refuse to think I'm setting myself up for failure, so I will hang on to this deluded optimism (the one that got me through O/A level) and believe that things will turn out OK.
Right. I need divine intervention.
I think my guardian angel whispered (deliberately in the faintest of voices) to go back to study.
Or maybe it's just guilt.
People always leave, be it you or me.
Relationships are temporary or ever changing.
It gets tiring after a while.
I need something constant.
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